september 12th

(10:30 pm) i need to stop buying sapporo i need to stop buying sapporo from the closest convenience store with beer to me. i dont know why i said buying, i only did it once and it cost about one hundred million dollars more than walking to the brand new h-mart that opened up only ten minutes away from me. i need to not buy sapporo not because its too expensive but because its bad. heres' a recommendation from me, buy the cheapest sake you can find and pour it into an asahi thats exctremely cold. heres another recommendation, dont drink sapporo. another recommendation, buy vintage stoneware on ebay and only use beautiful plates and bowls and mugs to consume anything you eat. one last recommendation (for now and specifically for me) buy lead paint testing kits if you buy vintage dishes and plan on touching them ever; fyi all of the ones on amazon are fake; fyi i havent tested any of my dishes for lead.

september 13th

(coming soon)

september 14th

(10 am) ive finally almost fully set myself up fully forever in my apartment and will never have any more issues ever again. i have a kettle (thats filling me with micro plastics) i have a beautiful 1.8 qt sauce pan (that they say isnt dishwasher safe but totally is if you arent a loser about it) and a cutting board (perfect also) and no furniture and no tables and no chairs and it was so hard to eat miso soup yesterday and i made too much miso soup, but it was my fault for having poorly shaped bowls and no soup spoon only normal spoons and not knowing measurements. but no issues will arise from now on because these arent issues theyre life decisions. as soon as you get something you have to have to for a while and i dont want to have anything around that i dont want to have around forever anymore. what i mean is i am paralyzed by the possibility that i will purhcase the wrong size tongs. i am unable to visualize sizes in my head and usability of things in my head easily. i just remembered i dont have any forks... i will fix that soon... i will come back and finish this thought later i am going on a journey to getting cheap dumplings.

september 18th

(8:42 am) its been one week since the 22nd anniversary of 9/11. i didnt notice anything different about being in ny for that anniversary vs being anywhere else. this is my current shopping list: green sparkly eye shadow cointreau limes vinegar sugar yogurt pepper hot sauce sesame oil umbrella sparkling water aperitivo/vermouth coca cola dashi powder mirin sake kombu white beans orzata dijon mortadella can opener flour olives cottage cheese herbs de provence chicken thighs shallots herbes fines green onions cheese candle (boy smells) i've decided to add more things after reading this: a couch a dining table atleast 3 chairs something to strengthen my finger nails radish 3 qt saucier many of these are connected to eachother and many are not. the most important things in here i think are orzata, aperitvo/vermouth, sparkling water, cointreau, and shallots. i really want to drink something new and delicious and i really want to pour cointreau into all of this sapporo i have to drink because i forgot i dont like sapporo before i drank it and i really want to dice something so fine and tiny and perfectly using my brand new knife. simple pleasures simple wants eternal life

september 27th

(7:35 pm) just chewed one of my nails down slightly too much because i didnt know what to do with myself for only 30 minutes twice. because i sat somewhere and got nothing out of it until i realized i could just go leave and go do something else. this time i was at home. but earlier, the first time i chewed them today, i was chewing them while learning nothing in class so i left and got poblano liqueur and sake and made fried rice with miso chicken and drank a poblano margarita and now am drinking a sake and poblano drink i garnished with lemongrass. it tastes almost exactly the same as the first drink because i added too much sugar both times. the mezcal i bought is too... good. i want it smokier and cheaper. i want everything to be smokier and cheaper. now im drinking melon milk and having extremely strong memories of highschool when i would drink honeydew milk tea so often. the first boba place near me in santa clarita never had boba. it didnt even make sense. no one liked going there it just was the only one open. i bought a 6 pack of melon milks from the fake but real h-mart near me that i only go to because it is the realest closest semi-real grocery store near me. the other cloest semi-real grocery store to me doesn't have corn tortillas. it only has mission flour and low carb tortillas. atleast h-mart doesnt even pretend to have tortillas. in an update since my last post i now have a dining table that i have put in the corner of my room to hold my modem and router and that i have not eaten anything on yet. other things that i own are limes, vinegar, an umbrella,

september 30th

(5:32 pm) i watched a video where a french woman made salad. instead of a salad spinner she had a metal basket that she filled with her wet lettuces and walked outside and spin around until they dried. i want that and im going to spin it around on my bed so i can sleep smelling of herbs and greens.