december 2nd

heaven is a series of rooms where we all meet. theres a nice event we're all going to. we all have to be on theme and we all have to be ourselves and we all have to match. we go through everyone's clothes sharing and exchanging and trying everything on. everything fits everyone differently. everything is slightly off so we keep looking and changing over and over trying to make it perfect. this goes on for a long time.

december 28th

ive been really into splashing water onto my face. ive been sleeping on my couch in new york for the past few months and only sometimes sleeping on my mattress. im in florida with my parents. and my parents gray cat and my black cat that lives here forever and who will never live with me. when i normally visit i sleep on the couch because someone takes the good guest room and the bad guest room has no fan. when i first got here and was sleeping in the good guest room i was sleeping on the mattress. i dont like the mattress or understand it. my black cat sleeps in the room sometimes during the day and she is often sleeping on a small rug on the far side of the mattress away from the door. i dont know if she's hiding but she's not very good at it. she refused to sleep in the bed with me but was happy to sleep in her spot on the floor on the rug away from the door. i transferred myself to the floor to sleep with her. i like the floor and the rug and the pile of blankets and pillows that ive arranged for sleeping next to her on the floor. the good guest room has more blankets and pillows than my entire apartment. at first she would lay next to me and spend time with me and sleep with me. now when i lay down there on the floor she uses me to jump up on the mattress and looks down at me. often with a single paw barely hanging off.