im reading more weil. im sitting at my dining table looking out the window. it's dark now so i don't really mean right now. i mean in general as in, that is what i do. i've decided to be more affected again. i havent taken my anti depressants in months because i am not depressed. i've been saying as a joke "how you spend your days is how you spend your life" to many people. if you remove the idea of doing something again and doing to better than last time, you've reached the end of it all.